living in massachussetts. it’s a long name to spell. aside spelling it out, i love it.
the new job is still new but it’s never boring. i get to be surrounded by a team who loves Jesus and He’s the center of this whole radio ministry. it’s that missional focus that lured me in. sure it can get a bit stressful but it’s only when others get stressed…sometimes it could me, sometimes it could be others. there’s some that are always steadfast and i’m glad i get to be sharpened by them. i need to learn how to be steadfast. to hold on to the truth over whatever my circumstance.
it’s so crazyto think that i’m seeing faces of new england i have never seen before and God had it all planned. these faces i would see some day. here we are. every face has a story. i wonder. the lady in her black and white coat, what’s her story? that couple sitting in the booth across from me, what’s their story? the lady that asked me to move out of my seat yesterday, what’s her story? if i keep this in mind, i hope compassion keeps stirring into flame…
i’m still praying about what church i’m supposed to be a part of but then again, i kinda feel like i already belong in one. the question is, do i feel this way because i work with a lot of those people at my job, or is this another comfort zone i need to avoid? like, are the connections i’ve made with these specific people part of God’s plan to lead me in the right direction? i’m gonna pray about it some more.
i wanna pray more. i need more of that in my life. whatever happened to praying and believing God would do what He said He would do if we did? feels like i just faded out of believing in santa clause or somethin’..
all this to say, i love it here in massachussetts. it’s dark. it’s unchurched. it’s where i belong. not because there are people like me. it’s because there aren’t. i’m not sayin’ oh look at me, i’m perfect. no. what i am sayin’ is i have hope. hope is here. i’m just another candle to add to the mantle here in new england. hoping to expand the radius of hope in a dark cold place. not everybody is cold during the cold. but there’s a huge chunk of glaciers that need thawing. i’m here to be of use. i’m thankful. this excites me. my drama can be used to thaw. how cool. so if you think of me, pray for courage. it’s not always easy to be open and transparent but i think that’s why it’s so powerful…
if i stick with Jesus, i guess fear will be demolished. pray for me to keep coming to God for everything, every day. i can’t do this alone.
