life in florida...

lately, i've had a lot of time to think about what i'm in florida for. it's been a struggle between how i feel versus what God has done.

i'm unhappy in florida. unhappy because i miss my church, friends and the weather of tn. unhappy because i hate the driving here and the feeling of not being safe. it's true discomfort to have to pry open other friendships here so i can squeeze in....

feeling unhappy and uncomfortable lead me to start to think that maybe this isn't where i'm supposed to be. "if i'm not happy then surely that means i'm not in the right place, right?" thats something i faced God with last night while driving. Sooo not my comfort zone.

people keep asking me, "how's it going in florida?!" and things are well but inside i'm just not happy because things are taking longer than expected. i have to be trained and the people needed to train me are sooo busy with other stuff that i feel frustrated. thoughts like "is this really gonna ever happen?" come to mind.

Frustration.

so as i was confessing all this to God last night, i was reminded of my life earlier this spring when i was feeling similar frustration at wayfm....things were going so slow. my mentor helped me realize that i wasn't content because i was placing my hope in this job instead of in the Lord. Lots of stuff i need changed and transformed...

so that's where i'm at. i'm placing my hopes so much on this job that when i'm not doing stuff related to it, i'm growing restless. Oops.

my relationship with God suffers because my focus is on me. i'm my own worst idol.

First one!

Just testing it out. I was inspired by Leeland's bloggin' so I thought why not! Right now I'm procrastinating. I should be working on something but I'm not. Let me be rebellious! I'm board-operating at WAY-FM in Franklin, TN. This is usually a boring job but it's a "foot in the door." Tonight our friend from Haiti arrives to America for the very first time! His name is Rodrigue and we met him on our mission trip to Haiti. I've been to Haiti twice. I'm glad. This is a country I want to continue to visit and help however God leads.