Friday, June 4, 2010

SEX and The City...but without


the sex. i stumbled onto this show months ago on tbs...sex sells. i'm guilty of using it to lure you into reading my blog...hehe
something about the word "sex" just always made me wanna keep my distance. not that sex is wrong but it's just not part of my lifestyle. there's other stuff more important...
so anyway, aside the sex, i can sooo relate with these 4 single women. my favorite character is carrie bradshaw played by sarah jessica parker...there's something about a straight-up hardcore fashionista smoking a cigarrette that makes me wanna do it too, forgetting how much i hate the stench it leaves on people...
the only parts i can't relate with are the sex ones.
1. because i've never had sex.
2. sex isn't my world...not just because of not ever doing it but it's just not at the center of what i care about...so why this blog? k, just keep reading.
i was sorta justifying it in my head that it was okay to watch this show because hey, these are single women just like me (minus the casual sexing)...waiting for mr. right....they love to shop and especially for shoes! plus, they know what it's like to be the single person invited to an all-married activity...getting invited to your friend's kid's bday parties and being the only one there who's not a mom and not a kid...you're just in between...feels like adolescence all over again.
don't get me wrong. i love my friendships with my married mommas but this is just reality. i'll be at one of these parties, baby showers and the question from a random invitee is "which kid is yours?" and then there's "oh you're not married?"
nope. i'm not. it's cool. i'm fine. just makes it awkward when married people have lived in A married world for so long that they sort of assume we're all married. (not all but most)
anyway, to the point of this blog. i found comfort in watching sex and the city. it also made me feel like a rebel for watching a show that revolves around single women's sex lives. that's normal. people have sex outside of marriage and inside of marriage all the time. just not me. but i want to someday. shows like these make me wanna know what it's like even more. and even though it's on tbs, the sensuality is pretty graphic, so then my mind flashes these images at random times. it's odd and embarassing....
that ever happen to you? random flashes of people going at it? it's either from stuff you've seen or just assumptions of it...weird, but i can't help but think, "she got knocked up by her hubby or some guy," any time i see a pregnant woman. if i see a married couple, the thought is "they have sex. they like do it whenever they want. crazy." lol oh man, i can't believe how awkward this is getting...haaa...annnnyway....
i decided i'd stop watching sex and the city. even though it's comforting to watch other single women venture out on finding mr. right, it's not reality for me. i'm not trying on every shoe that's on sale. i'm saving my money for the best, most unique pair of shoes my feet will ever step into. they'll fit just right and look super cute...totally worth it. :-)