learning that trust means holding on to God's word and not the praises of man. everything earthly withers away so it's pointless to even desire praises from others and it's silly to base my value on the amount of praise showered on me. it's not gonna satisfy me. but man it sure feels good to hear somebody tell me i'm awesome or that i did a great job at somethin'...still, truth is secure and where my my hope needs to be. God's our silent cheerleader...sorta....wish He'd speak up...just sayin'....anyway, i need to just do what's set before me and God does the rest....like the behind the scenes type of stuff...
and then this donald miller guy...he's got me thinking too...
not beating myself up here but man i really am a selfish person still. even when i want to do good (sounds like romans 7 but that's not where i wanna go with this) and think i'm thinking of others before myself, it's still self-seeking because i wanna be like Jesus. i'm doing it to be like jesus, not because i love Him or love the person more than myself...crazaaay...i wanna friggin' win this race!! like, i just wish things could be back to how it was before the fall of man...me, no struggles, no conflicts....bahhh...
so yeah day 7, not too shabby. facebook, kiss my bootay! me and God can go on without u~!...well 'til the end of may and then we can whip up some balance with this ish.
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